Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
More Photos Of My Cancerous Bump
These photos were taken on Dec 14, 2012... I had a CT scan earlier that day and when I took off my bra I must of scraped it open. Mom decided to mark the border of it to show the growth... wish we thought of that as soon as we discovered it.
This photo was taken on Dec 15, 2012
Here's a couple of photos of the CT fluid injection site.
Lovely, huh?
I see my oncologist on Monday for the PET and CT scan results. I also received a voicemail to set up an appointment for chemo... guess I'm starting a new chemo. I think she said Ontak... just did a search, guess I heard correctly, though I'm not liking what I'm reading.
Posted by Michelle at 12/16/2012 04:25:00 AM 2 comments
Labels: Health, Lymphoma/Cancer, Me Stuff, Pics
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Cancer Update: 12/12/12
Back in October, actually October 2nd, I went for my last chemo session for this round on Brentuximab... after this session we would do some scans and determine if I appeared in remission or if we should continue with the chemo. The neuropathy in my fingers and toes were pretty bad; so my doctor talked me into not having the chemo that day, we would do a PET scan to determine if the cancer was still active and then decide if I could stop the chemo altogether or if we needed to just delay it, giving more time between sessions and giving my nerves a chance to recuperate.
She said she never had to talk a patient OUT of doing chemo before… I was concerned about the cancer coming back again. When I finished the round of CHOP last year and was “declared” as “appears to be in remission”, it was two weeks and the cancer on my arm had reappeared, then a few weeks after that it appeared in the lymph node under my right arm again… also spreading into my chest area and into my bone marrow in the pelvic area. So I had reason to be wary.
We were preparing for the PET scan when we were notified that Medicaid denied the request! I received a letter from the panel of their decision by certified mail… we had to sign for it! Unbelievable!! This NEVER happened before… I had been on Medicaid for six months and had just been renewed on Sept 11th. Evidently part of the change was the beginning implementations of Obamacare, such as the setting up of the “panels”. So I guess Republicans were not wrong…
Then I received another letter from the panel (certified mail, of
course)… they also denied the physical therapy my doctor prescribed for the
neuropathy. WOW!! I began to wonder if I was ever going to get
approval from Medicaid for anything ever again.
I really felt as if I was getting left to die. This was becoming unreal.
When I saw the P.A. on Nov 5th, there was discussion of
symptoms coming back and I was informed that we were going to wait until
January and do another CT, since Medicaid would not authorize the PET. I was highly upset! I had been off chemo since September… my
symptoms were coming back in full force, the difficulty in breathing, shortness
of breath, the wheezing, the pains, etc.
I told her I thought it was very much like playing with fire! I have symptoms coming back, a possibility of
it being in my lungs… and we’re gonna wait another couple of months?? Are you serious? I’d hate to wait until January, do the scan, and
then find out, SHIT, if only we scanned sooner, now it’s too late! If only we had caught this sooner! I mean REALLY?! I DID NOT GET THAT AT ALL! The P.A. told me she understood and went out
to talk to the doctor. It was decided
that we would do the PET scan, but through the hospital financial aid
services. I thought, “Thank God!” I believe it was the very next day that I
received a voice message telling me that the doctor had changed her mind and
that she didn’t want to see me until January.
I was shocked!! I was
dumbfounded!! I was speechless! After the initial shock wore off I became
upset, angry, severely pissed off… HOW DARE THEY JEOPARDIZE MY LIFE!! I wanted to cry, but I was so angry… I wanted
to go down there and demand the scan; I was going to tell her that if we wait
and the cancer spreads while they do nothing, then I was going to sue her freakin’
ass!!! I was so upset and so angry that
I ended up shutting down. I couldn’t
call, I was afraid of what would come out of my mouth. I didn’t want to go running down there in
fear of creating a major disturbance and having security called. I contemplated getting a second opinion, and I
thought about finding a new doctor. But
I adore my P.A.
I shut down for about two weeks… then I had something appear on my back. This was taken on November 29, 2012. *In some of the photos I marked some things that looked suspicious to me, they appear to be growing as well as it all progresses. They're just little bitty baby ones right now.
Okay, let’s back up a bit. Right before I saw the P.A. back on Nov 5th,
I had what appeared to be some kind of bite, like a huge mosquito or bug bite
on my right arm. Didn’t think much of it
so didn’t mention it. But now it had
become perfectly circular, it was very pink and had a red line around the circumference
that was a little indented. In a way it
looked like a burn, kind of like from a car lighter. At one point, after a shower, the top layer
of skin came off and it REALLY looked like a burn. Very strange.
Wasn’t sure if it was cancer.
Didn't photograph the first stage of the arm thing, the big bug bite stage, then it started to look like this.
Then, a few days later, after the shower it looked like this.
Then this thing popped out on my back. This was the day before Thanksgiving.
I had an appointment with the P.A. on Dec 4th for Labs &
Exam, figured I’d call and bump it up, then figured at this late time there
probably wouldn’t be any openings. So I
called my family doctor. She thought the
one on my back looked like an infection, so she put me on antibiotics to clear
it up. I told her that mom removed a
tick last year from approximately the same place, so she had blood work done also
for Lyme disease and Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, just in case. Well, the antibiotics didn’t affect the one
on my back at all, but the one on my arm started clearing up. At this point I don’t know if it was the
antibiotics, or it just running it’s course.
On Nov 29th I had mom take some photos of the one on my back…
SOON AS I SAW IT I KNEW… I knew it
was cancer!
Here it is on December 1, 2012
Here it is on December 10, 2012
I saw the doctor on Dec 4th, told her I was fairly certain
it was cancer. She looked at it and
agreed. She said she also feels swollen
nodes on the left side of my chest/arm area.
Said we needed another CT and a PET scan. Just found out Monday that Medicaid approved
the scans, thank God! My PET scan is on
Thursday and the CT is Friday. I see the
doctor on Monday, Dec 17th for the results and game plan. Still
feeling uncertain about my doctor… feel a little betrayed and definitely feel
that trust has been broken. Will
definitely need radiation, which I think we need to be moving a little faster
on. It has already grown substantially
and I’ve found several new ones breaking out, they’re still tiny, but coming
along just as fast. We keep taking
pictures every few nights to track the progress. It is EXTREMELY fascinating to see it like
this… my camera phone is AWESOME!! Some
really great high-def photos. The little
ones we couldn’t see with our eyes, we wouldn’t have known if we hadn’t taken
the photos. Then when I used the magnifier on them... WHOA!!!
You have to admit... it is a little fascinating, isn't it!?!
Posted by Michelle at 12/12/2012 07:31:00 PM 1 comments
Labels: Fears, Health, Lymphoma/Cancer, Me Stuff, Pics
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Pravda Article: Obama re-elected by American illiterate society
19.11.2012
By Xavier Lerma
After Obama was elected in his first
term as president the then Prime Minister of Russia, Vladimir Putin gave a
speech at the World Economic Forum in Davos, Switzerland in January of 2009.
Ignored by the West as usual, Putin gave insightful and helpful advice to help
the world economy and saying the world should avoid the Soviet mistake.
Recently, Obama has been re-elected for
a 2nd term by an illiterate society and he is ready to continue his lies of
less taxes while he raises them. He gives speeches of peace and love in the
world while he promotes wars as he did in Egypt, Libya and Syria. He plans his
next war is with Iran as he fires or demotes his generals who get in the way.
Putin said regarding the military,
"...instead of solving the
problem, militarization pushes it to a deeper level. It draws away from the
economy immense financial and material resources, which could have been used
much more efficiently elsewhere."
Well, any normal individual understands
that as true but liberalism is a psychosis . O'bomber even keeps
the war going along the Mexican border with projects like "fast and
furious" and there is still no sign of ending it. He is a Communist
without question promoting the Communist Manifesto without calling it so. How
shrewd he is in America. His cult of personality mesmerizes those who cannot go
beyond their ignorance. They will continue to follow him like those fools who
still praise Lenin and Stalin in Russia. Obama's fools and Stalin's fools share
the same drink of illusion.
Reading Putin's speech without knowing
the author, one would think it was written by Reagan or another conservative in
America. The speech promotes smaller government and less taxes. It comes as no
surprise to those who know Putin as a conservative. Vladimir Putin went on to
say:
"...we are reducing taxes on
production, investing money in the economy. We are optimizing state expenses.
The second possible mistake would be
excessive interference into the economic life of the country and the absolute
faith into the all-mightiness of the state.
There are no grounds to suggest that by
putting the responsibility over to the state, one can achieve better results.
Unreasonable expansion of the budget
deficit, accumulation of the national debt - are as destructive as an
adventurous stock market game.
During the time of the Soviet Union the
role of the state in economy was made absolute, which eventually lead to the
total non-competitiveness of the economy. That lesson cost us very dearly. I am
sure no one would want history to repeat itself."
President Vladimir Putin could never
have imagined anyone so ignorant or so willing to destroy their people like
Obama much less seeing millions vote for someone like Obama. They read history
in America don't they? Alas, the schools in the U.S. were conquered by the
Communists long ago and history was revised thus paving the way for their
Communist presidents. Obama has bailed out those businesses that voted for him
and increased the debt to over 16 trillion with an ever increasing unemployment
rate especially among blacks and other minorities. All the while promoting his
agenda.
"We must seek support in the moral
values that have ensured the progress of our civilization. Honesty and hard
work, responsibility and faith in our strength are bound to bring us
success."- Vladimir Putin
The red, white and blue still flies
happily but only in Russia. Russia still has St George defeating the Dragon
with the symbol of the cross on its' flag. The ACLU and other atheist groups in
America would never allow the US flag with such religious symbols. Lawsuits a
plenty against religious freedom and expression in the land of the free.
Christianity in the U.S. is under attack as it was during the early period of
the Soviet Union when religious symbols were against the law.
Let's give American voters the benefit
of the doubt and say it was all voter fraud and not ignorance or stupidity in
electing a man who does not even know what to do and refuses help from Russia
when there was an oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico. Instead we'll say it's true
that the Communists usage of electronic voting was just a plan to manipulate
the vote. Soros and his ownership of the company that counts the US votes in
Spain helped put their puppet in power in the White House. According to the
Huffington Post, residents in all 50 states have filed petitions to secede from
the Unites States. We'll say that these Americans are hostages to the
Communists in power. How long will their government reign tyranny upon them?
Russia lost its' civil war with the
Reds and millions suffered torture and death for almost 75 years under the
tyranny of the United Soviet Socialist Republic. Russians survived with
a new and stronger faith in God and ever growing Christian Church. The question
is how long will the once "Land of the Free" remain the United
Socialist States of America? Their suffering has only begun. Bye bye Miss American
Pie! You know the song you hippies. Sing it! Don't you remember? The 1971 hit
song by American song writer Don McLean:
"And, as I watched him on the
stage my hands were clenched in fists of rage.
No angel born in Hell could break that
Satan's spell
And, as the flames climbed high into
the night to light the sacrificial rite, I saw...
Satan laughing with delight the day the
music died
He was singing, bye bye Miss American
Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the
levee was dry
Them good ol' boys were drinking
whiskey and rye, singing...
This'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die
So, the question remains:
How long will America suffer and to
what depths?
Xavier Lerma
Contact Xavier Lerma at
xlermanov@swissmail.orgHis popular articles can be seen at http://xlerma.wordpress.com/
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