Radio Flyer Wagon Car... Awesome!

Very awesome... I want one!!

My Oncologist, Dr. Lola Olajide: Rex on Call - Breast Cancer

Here is my oncologist... Dr. Lola Olajide, Rex Hematology Oncology Associates (Rex Cancer Center).

Cancer Recurrence: What's Been Going On

I know it's been a few weeks since I last blogged, but I've been really tired.  It's hard doing chemo and work.

I had my first chemo session on Friday, March 18th. I was nauseous over the weekend. The prednisone makes me sick to my stomach, but I have to take 5 pills (at one time) every day for 5 days after my chemo.  At first I didn't think to take the other pills they gave me... the ones to fight the nausea... but when I did, all was well.

I was notified that I was approved by Merck for the ACT program, which helps pay for meds if you qualify.  They're going to cover my Neulasta shots I need after my chemo.  It helps boost my immune system so I don't get sick or infections as easily.  The shot runs about $7000. a pop.  I have to get one every three weeks on the Monday after my chemo.  I also qualified for my Aloxi med through the Eisai Patient Assistant Program.  This will be a tremendous help also.  My Limited Benefit Plan health insurance through the temp agency doesn't cover any of my chemotherapy.  At this point, I've maxed out about all my coverage for everything else.  REX Hospital qualified me for their Assistance Program, so that's another HUGE help.  I still owe several thousand dollars for surgeons, anesthesiology, labs, and such; also, I'm still waiting for bills to come through for a lot of services that didn't initially have my insurance info.

I had to have blood work done on Monday, March 28th, to check my counts... they were so good they had to call and tell me how good they were... she said I should do chemo more often.  *lol*

On Thursday, March 31st, my hair started loosening and coming out.



YouTube Video of hair coming out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQ7HcmvHubA


On Friday, April 1st, my sister came to cut my hair. A guy I work with said when his mother had chemo, she cut her hair short and it didn't all fall out. I don't know if her chemo was as harsh as mine, but it was worth a try.

Here's little bits of video of my sister, Laura, cutting my hair. (The video is not the greatest, I learned to not let my mom run the digital video recorder)



YouTube Video of my sister cutting my hair: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYKXA1NvG_0


On Saturday morning I got sick... I got up, had a cup of coffee and a blueberry muffin Laura had brought me the night before.  Within a half hour to 45 minutes, all hell broke loose. I don't ever remember being this sick. I was power vomiting and had severe diarhea, and I couldn't get either to stop. My temperature was 101.3 degrees. I couldn't keep meds down or liquids. I called my doctor and she told me to try to get the nausea medicine down, she said she would call in some antibiotics, but I wasn't sure if it was an infection, virus, or just a bad muffin... my first thought was food poisoning or bad blueberries in the muffin. After about two hours things really hadn't changed much except my temperature went up to 102 degrees. So I called her back and asked her to call in the antibiotics. She was thinking that maybe I should be admitted into the hospital, but I told her I wanted to wait until morning to see if there is any change. It took everything I had to keep those meds down so they could get into my system. Finally the nausea meds started kicking in and I was able to start keeping liquids down. I was much better by morning but still in pretty bad shape. I didn't go to work Monday or today.

On Sunday, I got in the shower and so much hair was falling out it clogged up the drain. So mom shaved my head.

How's that for a noggin!

I'm supposed to have another round of chemo this Friday, don't know if they will let me since I've been sick and can't shake this fever.  We'll see.

I Fought For You: By The Sound Tank

My dad forwarded this to me.

Ray Stevens - The Last Laugh [1980, Shriner's Convention]

I have been looking forever for this song, only available on the original vinyl record.  Was hoping someone would record it off their old album.  I found a version, but at a higher speed.  She likes it better that way, just wish she'd do another version at the correct speed.  Oh well, beggers can't be choosers, I guess.




Here are the lyrics, although I couldn't quite make out a few near the end.

Ray Stevens - The Last Laugh
1980 - The Shriner's Convention Album

In your garage, I will start up my dodge and I'll stick my head in the exhaust. When the doctors arrive and try to revive me, they'll say, "Sorry, we tried but we lost."

And I'll say, "Ah ha ha ha, who's laughing now, I've got the last laugh on you". I'll say, "Ah ha ha ha, you'll be so sorry you treat me the way that you do."


Up on the hill, by the Hollywood sign, it's a great place to end the whole show. I'll leave you a note, tied to my throat, when I jump from the top of the O.


And I'll say, "Ah ha ha ha, who's laughing now, I've got the last laugh on you". I'll say, "Ah ha ha ha, you'll be so sorry you treat me the way that you do."


Bye, bye, baby. I'll leave you the car in my will. Bye, bye, baby. After I drive it over the hill.


Well here I am, with my gasoline can, so just tell me once more you don't care. And I'll memorize that look in your eyes that [[ hupbacle?? worked like a plan ]] or [[ I planned ]]


And I'll say, "Ah ha ha ha, who's laughing now, I've got the last laugh on you". I'll say, "Ah ha ha ha, you'll be so sorry you treat me the way that you do."


I'll say, "Ah ha ha ha, who's laughing now, I've got the last laugh on you". I'll say, "Ah ha ha ha, you'll be so sorry you treat me the way that you do."

So if you know the words I couldn't make out... please leave a comment or email me.  And if you know where I can get the song digitally [did I say that right, after I wrote it I started questioning if that's what I was trying to say... it's been one of those weeks... mp3, m4a, wma, wav/avi, wmv, mp4, flv] or on a CD, please let me know, I'd be ever so grateful.  Thanks.

"Taken" - Movie Review

I just watched "Taken" last night... it was EXCELLENT!!!  If you like to see the bad guy get what's coming to him... you'll love this movie.  It will have your blood pumping for various reasons.  I haven't talked back to a movie like this since "Man On Fire" with Denzel Washington.

Liam Neeson did a superb job playing this role.  He kicked some major butt!  I was very animated during most of the movie. When his daughter was taken WHILE he was on the phone with her, I could just feel a parents nightmare living this situation.  And when he told the dude on the phone, "Let her go now and I won't look for you.  If not, I will look for you, I WILL find you, and I will kill you!" you got that he was stating a fact, not just bluffing or throwing out idle threats in the heat of the moment.  The guy replies back with, "Good luck.", which comes back to haunt him... I don't want to give away too much for those who haven't seen it.  But it is an excellent moment.

I have to admit, very unchristian thoughts and words were all abound.  I wanted those guys dead... and not in a civilized way.  This movie evokes those primal feelings... that these horrendous people, these scum-of-the-earth, should not and were NOT going to get away with everything you see during his search for his daughter.

"Taken" Movie Trailer

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Nancy Pelosi... What a superscary whack-job!

If this wasn't bad enough...

Nancy Pelosi asking the church to preach amnesty.



Ohhhh... so it's "separation of church and state" EXCEPT when Pelosi wants them to preach on something she supports.


Then comes this...

Pelosi Says It's Okay To Quit Your Job... Go Be Creative... Taxpayers Have Got Your "Health Care" Back.




Here's a more in depth debate on same issue.




This woman is un-freakin'-believable!

Media Ignore La Raza Immigration Protester Fomenting Violent Revolution

**NOTE - This man is a high school history teacher!


Media Ignore La Raza Immigration Protester Fomenting Violent Revolution
By Lachlan Markay - Mon, 05/10/2010 - 14:45 ET

Which is more newsworthy: hearsay accounts of racial slurs unsupported by video evidence of the alleged incident, or video of a protester calling for violent revolution against the federal government, the imposition of socialism, and the annexation of the Southwestern states for Mexico?

If you chose the latter, you're probably not a journalist of the self-proclaimed "mainstream" variety. The legacy media has been largely silent on video of Los Angles schoolteacher at a La Raza protest of the recently-passed Arizona immigration law literally calling for the violent overthrow of the United States government.

"There's 40 million potential revolutionaries north of the border, inside the belly of the beast," Los Angeles high school history teacher Ron Gochez told a frenzied crowd, referring to the 40 million Latin Americans in the United States. He went on to claim that teaching or writing a book "is not part of the movement," and that his followers needed to go a step further -- to literal revolution.




video link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yGqPo5ofk0s

Does this man represent a fringe element of the pro-illegal immigration protesters? Probably. Has an individual's fringe status ever stopped the media from reporting on the outlandish things a couple Tea Party attendees have said? Of course not. Often those statements are taken as evidence that the movement is nothing more than a bunch of potentially-violent racists clinging to their God and guns.

The clip above shows a man actually advocating violence. There is no ambiguity about it. He obviously has a deep hatred of capitalism -- which can reasonably be described as far more radical than a deep hatred of socialism. And this man is a high school history teacher!

The response from the mainstream press: [crickets].

Where are the journalists that were so worried about political violence stemming from the Tea Party?

Why is Mark Potok of the Souther Poverty Law Center not appearing all over cable television to decry the anti-government violence La Raza is advocating?

Where is Bill Clinton to pontificate on the dangers of heated rhetoric and the potential that it could spill over into actual violence? And where are all the media talking heads that were so eager to parrot the former president's politicized warnings?

The alleged spitting incident on the steps of the Canon House Office Building was enough to whip media liberals into a frenzy. With the N-words supposedly hurled at Rep. John Lewis, it made for a perfect anti-Tea Party media meme, despite the total lack of evidence supporting the claims.

MSNBC's prime time lineup was one four-hour doomsaying sermon on the dangers of "right-wing extremism." But so far that channel is eerily silent on this man's heated calls for a violent uprising.

Pictures of a sign at a Tea Party rally quoting Thomas Jefferson's famous "water the tree of liberty with the blood of patriots and tyrants" statement were paraded around as an undeniable sign that the Tea Party movement was out to overthrow -- violently, if necessary -- the political order.

Leftist accounts of the Tea Party are replete with accusations of racism. But where is the outrage over this La Raza protester's use of the phrase "frail ... white people"?

Even Sarah Palin's use of crosshairs on a map of November's target congressional districts was touted by many media liberals as a sign that conservatives have an inherently violent attitude towards politics. And yet, the same journalists haven't drawn any similar conclusions about the radical pro-illegal immigration movement that, as we've just seen, actually calls for violent revolt.

For those who have been paying attention, this double standard is hardly shocking. But the video of this man literally fomenting revolution and advocating violent imposition of socialism -- and the media's virtual silence -- serve as a powerful reminder of the legacy media's never-ending quest to discredit conservatives.

—Lachlan Markay is an associate with Dialog New Media. Make sure to follow him on Twitter.


http://newsbusters.org/blogs/lachlan-markay/2010/05/10/media-ignore-la-raza-immigration-protester-fomenting-violent-revolut

"LOST" Fans - Jorge Garcia (Hurley) Interview

Jorge Garcia On the "Tiring ... Wet ... Perilous" 'Lost' Finale & More (VIDEO)

"LOST" - Everybody Loves Hugo

Apr. 13 Episode: Everybody Loves Hugo

At Libby's gravesite, Hurley is wearing a brown t-shirt... swoosh to the flash-sideways, he's still wearing brown, but now it's a casual dress shirt. Just thought it was interesting...

Back to the island and in the middle of a disagreement with Ilana... BOOM!.. she blows up. Poor Hurley... second time he's been traumatized by someone blowing up while they're off on a tangent. And what the heck do you think is in that bag he picked up out of Ilana's stuff?

The last time we say this bag, Ilana was putting Jacob's ashes into it.

 

Then we saw Miles getting Jacob's story like he was reading a bag of tea leaves.

Is that what Hurley saw when he opened it, Jacob's ashes... or was there other stuff too?  Why the heck would Hugo keep a bag of dust?  He didn't know it was Jacob's ashes... he was at the Temple.  So, again, what's the deal with Ilana's bag?

Then there's Desmond! This calm, collected Desmond is a little unsettling, albeit in an interesting 'I wanna know what he knows' way. In previous episodes, Desmond always reminded me of one of those small yappy dogs that shake all the time. Always chaotic and "I don't know what's going on, I'm just trying to get through it and survive'. Now it's like he's driven with some sort of specific purpose and I want to know what he's thinking! What's his game plan? He went with Sayid... and now John, way too easily.

When Hurley blew up the "Black Rock"... whoa, dude! Miles: "Warning might have been nice there, Hugo." Hurley's response... "I did say run." LMAO!! Note: Hugo says, "Dead people are more reliable than live people." Tell that to John Locke! The dead people that were talking to him were manipulating liars.

The appearance of the "wild-child"... this time a dark-haired boy carrying a staff... wearing the same outfit the blonde boy was wearing. The way he smiled at Desmond...? Like he was pleased... about what? That Desmond was here and things were going according to plan, or maybe just pleased that John was so irritated with his presence? John was none to pleased to see this kid, it really seemed to irk him; unlike the blond boy, whom didn't smile, but turned and ran with John right behind him.

Random thinking... 2 boys, one blond, one dark. ???
Jacob - MIB
Jack - Sawyer
Aaron - Charlie Hume

My mind keeps wanting to go back to Aaron and what his significance was. Early on it was stressed that it was important that only Claire raise him...

Claire's First Visit W/Psychic (video)

Claire's Second Visit W/Psychic (video)

Claire's Third Visit W/Psychic (video)

Lost - s01e10 - Raised By Another:  In her "dream" John said, "he (the baby) was your responsibility, but you gave him away, Claire. Everyone pays the price now." He looked up and one eye was a black stone, the other a white stone.

Claire's Dream (video)

What's up with that??  What happened to all that?  What about Aaron and his role in all this?

I've been reading and listening to other people's (blogs/podcasts) and some seem to question what Alpert asked Hugo to ask Jacob about the island. What is the island? They're like... oooo, what does that mean? Uh, the island is the cork! Remember the metaphor Jacob gave Richard in Ab Aeterno.  Richard was testing Hurley... he didn't believe Jacob was there talking to Hurley... so, prove it, Hurley; what did Jacob say the island is?

I gasped when MIB/NotLocke pushed Desmond down the well... I wasn't surprised that he'd do something like that, just didn't expect it.

Notice that Desmond said he had a son, Charlie. Charlie doesn't exist in this time 'whatever'. Then when Desmond ran John Locke down... hoo-wee! Did not expect that. Thought he wanted to talk with Locke. My mind is spinning over this one.

"LOST" - Rose & Bernard

Note: I have brought this up, a few times... What happened to Rose & Bernard when the bomb went off? Did they get left back in 1977?? And that I think the cave "Adam & Eve" is Rose & Bernard.

Well check this out! I came across this and thought WOW!!

When Sawyer, Kate, and Alex were rescuing Karl from the brainwashing room there was some speech you couldn't make out through the noise. I came across a video of that being played backwards and the voice says:

"Only fools are enslaved by time and space."

Someone states in a comment that it is an anagram for, "Bones of Nadlers may lay lost deep in cave."

Rose & Bernard's last name is Nadler.



Here is the link to the brainwashing room video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZmAz86uHq4

"LOST" - Happily Ever After & My Ramblings

Apr. 6 Episode: Happily Ever After


OH MY... OH MY GOSH!!! My mind is racing over so much information.
Someone's blog had mentioned that the island time and the flash-sideways were bleeding more and more into each other every episode. I wasn't really buying it... until last week when Sun looked into the mirror. I mentioned it in my last "LOST" post, her look was just... odd.

 

Well now I'm a believer. And I'm also wow'd by the fact that I had just re-watched s3e8: Flashes Before Your Eyes and how the interaction of Desmond with Charles Widmore and Eloise Hawking jumped out at me in a way they didn't the first time.
I was not surprised when Desmond walked into Charles Widmore's office as his right-hand man... kind of got the feeling when he was in the limo. Exactly what I would expect from "LOST".

The MacCutcheon scotch keeps showing up... when Desmond meets with Widmore in his office in the flash-sideways.

In Season 3, Episode 8: Flashes Before Your Eyes...

 

...on the island when Hurley and Charlie got Desmond drunk to find out his secret.

Also in his flashback when Widmore told Desmond, "Because you, Hume, will never be a great man."

Also at the bar after breaking up with Penny.



 



Oh, and check out the art piece on the wall in Widmore's office... it's like a child's rendition of the Dharma barracks... a cabin, the fence, the jungle surrounding, the monster behind the fence, namaste written backwards across the top almost like we're see the backside of the painting, and a man hanging down from the top.

 

Oh, huh... upon closer inspection it's a polar bear, not a monster... and the upside down man is an upside down statue, I believe.

 There's other paintings of similar style... would like to see a close-up of those.

 

Also noticed how Desmond seems to move between the chairs and the artwork moves from one wall to another.  At first Desmond is in the chair on the right and the bar is on the wall to his right.  Then he looks to his right and the paintings that were to his left are now on the wall to his right, you also see he is now sitting in the left chair.  Notice the picture behind his head is really dark... look at the next pic and now it's an entirely different picture and the bar is now beside him on his right.  Does this mean something or is this just bad staging that no one picked up on in editing.

On a side note - Why didn't it ring any bells with Charlie when he was on the island and they found the hatch... if this weird conversation with Desmond about hatches, a computer and a button on an island had happened (after the meeting with Widmore), you'd think he'd have a nagging déjà vu kind of thing that would have evoked that memory.

The event hardly seems forgetful.

I wonder, did Desmond and Penny name their son Charlie after Charlie Pace or Penny's father, Charles? I choose to believe it was after Desmond's friend, Charlie Pace, who, in a sense, brought them back together.


Back to this episode... when Desmond and Charlie crashed into the water and Charlie put his hand up...

...and Desmond had the 'memory of Charlie with "NOT PENNY'S BOAT" on his hand.

Whoa! It's all coming to a head... the original timeline and this flash-sideways 'timeline' ARE bleeding into each other! Then when he started having flashes of Penny and his son... I got goose bumps and teared up a little. For me, Desmond and Penny's love seemed so strong... I knew she'd find him someday, and when she finally did in s04e13 - There's No Place Like Home (P2)... oh my, that was one of my favorite scenes. When he realized it was her... and then she realized she had finally found him. The "is this really real" moment. To the reunion kiss.

Right up there with the s04e05 - The Constant... when Desmond was on the boat and made the call to Penny.

Now check out Widmore's office in the flash-sideways...

 

Basically the same picture... one framed in white, the other in black.  Mmmm-hmm!


So... Eloise Hawking is now Mrs. Widmore... and Daniel Faraday is now Daniel Widmore... and Penny Widmore is now Penny Milton. Eloise tells Desmond, "Someone has clearly affected the way you see things. This is a serious problem. It is, in fact, a violation." A violation?? Of what?

Something bothers me about this conversation... Something about Eloise has been constant throughout the entire show... no matter what timeline (past, present, or future?) with the exception of the beginning when she was on the island as a young woman (in 1954 when she was Ellie)... she seems to be the only person that knows or seems to have a complete knowledge of what IS going on/what IS to happen. That brings me to Daniel's journal? Does she have it and has had it since she shot him in 1977?

She knew the path leading Desmond to the island, she knew that Daniel was meant to be or needed to be a scientist instead of a musician, that all the women in his life would be terribly hurt, she sent him to the island knowing that she will eventually shoot and kill him, she gave him that journal at his graduation with the message inside, "No matter what, remember, I will always love you. Mother". In s05e14 - The Variable, when Eloise met Penny in the hospital after Desmond was shot, Eloise told her, "For the first time, in a long time, I don't know what's going to happen next."

In the original timeline, Eloise is helping to get the Oceanic 6, plus Ben, plus, Desmond, plus John Locke's body back to the island.  In this flash-sideways she's trying to stop Desmond from seeking out the what?... the truth?... reality?... it's as if she wants this timeline to become the reality.  Then again, in this reality, her son is alive and healthy and she is married to Widmore.  She seems to have a lot of wealth and power.  She obviously doesn't want to give up all that she's gained.

Is it a good thing or a bad thing that Desmond went with Sayid? And in the flash-sideways, he's going to start 'waking up' everyone on his flight... "I just need to show them something." I take that as how Charlie had to show HIM something!  Things are gonna get interesting!

The Real Reason for Easter - Revelation Song

Shrek: Forever After Trailer

Wedding Ceremony - My Waffley Wedded Wife

Another Adorable "Mean Kitty" Video

Drawing Heaven - 12 Yr. Old Artist

America Rising: An Open Letter To The Democrats

A friend sent me the link to this video... I think it is a powerful message that is being sent.  The same message we are seeing time and time again in many ways... tea parties, town hall meetings, videos, websites, songs, and most importantly... in elections.  And let me be clear here... this is NOT just a message for Far-Left Liberals or Democrats... there are some liberal and moderate Republicans/Independents that need to take heed!




Joe Seales' Website (to download video): http://www.joeseales.com/2010/01/12/america-rising-video-a-must-see/

God And Dog: by Wendy Francisco

A friend emailed this to me and I thought it was just awesome. Thanks Pat.




http://www.wendyfrancisco.com/
http://www.godanddog.org/

Never a Year Like '09 - Goodbye 2009!

A little humor to end the year! Everyone stay safe tonight.

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