Monday, October 19, 2009

Casting Out Demons

I was reading my friend Beth's blog post this morning... and it was a wake-up call for me. Somehow I let a demon into my house and it's been opening the door for it's buddies.

Usually, when I sense their presence, I cast them out immediately. Many times I have been attacked, although usually in an immediate struggle.  A few times it has been a physical attack. The feeling of being held down, like someone is pushing you down or sitting on top of you... for anyone that has gone through this, you know how terrifying and overwhelming it is. The feeling of powerlessness (is that a word?).

This one snuck in slowly and quietly, then took over, almost as if it bound me before I knew it. It's like I didn't even put up a fight... like I didn't know I needed to fight or something.  Somewhere in the back of my mind I knew something was wrong, but I couldn't quite put my finger on it, I was blinded to it.  Through my friend Beth, the Lord opened my eyes and my heart which allowed me to be freed from these bindings. She named it and brought it out into the light, it was like a slap in the face.  Duh!  I already feel the sensation of a burden being lifted.

So, please, all my friends and family, say a prayer for me and keep me in your prayers. I believe I will need help with this bunch of deviant demons. Fear, dread, doom, depression, doubt... just to name a few. Causing me to want to retreat and hide from the world, almost isolating myself.

Thank you, Beth, for allowing the Lord to work through you.  And thank you, Lord, for being so persistant and continuing to knock, no pound, on this thick head of mine to be heard.  *lol*

Love and blessings to all on this beautiful Monday morning!


Beth in NC said...

Oh Michelle. I'm thankful my post touched you and exposed something. To God be the glory!

I do pray you will be covered with God's peace and JOY -- removing all doubt, fear, etc ...

Bless you!

Michelle said...

Thank you, Beth. Isn't it funny how such a little thing, like a blog post, can have such a big impact on someone else. I get such a kick out of that.

Sometimes we get to see the impact we have on others lives... and it is a wondrous thing.